lifethrupoems

I can do it over again

I can be funnier

Land the punchline right

Be the life of the party

I can do it over again

I can be more social

Never cancel when I’m tired

Show up with a smile

I can do it over again

I can be prettier

Do my makeup every day

Learn how to dress earlier

I can do it over again

I can be more popular

Learn the lingo, the jokes

Put in the time to fit in

Please let me do it over again

I swear I can be better this time

I hide behind locked doors

In more ways than one

Lock my heart behind

Cement walls and fences

So no one can see the cracks

Tears disappear behind

Wide smiles, teeth showing

Strained around the edges

But no one looks twice

Breakdowns only happen

Inside closed doors

Hood over my face

Music blasting in the car

Covering the sounds of

My facade crumbling

I hide a lot and I hide often

But I never hide well

No one notices anyway

Sometimes I wonder

Why I hide at all

Because no one will

Come running to save me